Good Things.

Come to those who wait. And wait. And wait. Well, God really threw me for a loop this time. Steven and I were both feeling pretty optimistic about this job opportunity. Optimistic to the point that, we were basically certain he had it. And it turns out that at this point, he doesn't. The Chief said that he intends to hire Steven within the year but he just can't do it right now. It was pretty tough to hear and we were both severely disappointed. I was an absolute wreck. Instead of me comforting Steven he was the one comforting me. I was pretty pathetic. It was just such a shock. We had gotten to the point where it felt like this job was everything to us and now it just isn't there. My heart was (is) really hurting for Steven. He worked so hard and I think that he's really shown his commitment and passion for this career and this department over the past year. I just really thought he had earned one of those four positions and it doesn't make any sense to me why we have to wait. So now I wonder... what are we supposed to be learning? Do you ever think like that, like "Okay God, this took a turn that I really wasn't expecting slash am not very happy about so can I at least get something positive out of this? Will you please show me how this is going to be a good productive thing for me?" I'm like that. Impatient mostly. I don't want to waste any time, you know? In fact, I was literally on craigslist looking for a summer job within minutes of Steven hearing the bad news -- we do have to find some sort of income other than my 6 hours a week of tutoring now that the substitute teaching has ended for the year.

So I moped and sulked (and cried) all day long even though I know we're going to be just fine and that everything is going to work out as it always does and that God has a reason and He will continue to provide for us just as I've told Steven throughout this whole process (though he was the one reminding me of it yesterday) and then when we were driving home last night we saw the most perfect rainbow. It was bright and beautiful and complete, stretching right over the top of this little city of Enumclaw. Now, I'm sorry if this sounds cheesy, I'm not one to really be like "*gasp* it's a sign!!!" but if I know my Bible stories, and I'm pretty sure I do, this rainbow is supposed to serve as a symbol. A reminder of God's mercy and His promises. So while I'm not relating our disappointing day to a devastating Biblical flood, I can tell you that I am going to do my best to trust that God has a plan and it is better than mine. I can't tell you how many years of my life I've spent "learning" this lesson. Either I'm a very slow learner or this is just a really high learning curve.

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11